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Thursday, 25 August 2011, 06:16
"I'll try to keep on smiling, even when it hurts the MOST "
Be My Guest To Love Me sincerely,
Sometime, a sincere women INSTINCT can really be felt when something had gone wrong..
I hate feeling this way because i will tend to feel insecure and being cheated ..
Now I'm damn hurt like fvck ... !
My heart is still bleeding and i can assure you it will take sometime to heal ..
I've tried to move on but i don't know which step should i take ? Right ? Left? Upwards ? Backwards ? Or just stand and let shit happen wherever i am?? Hahaha ..
Shits like this happen in just a blink of eyes, it happen so quickly for me to realized whats happening to me.. (O.o)" ..
But I'll try my best to do what is best for me for future wise..
I can't keep lying to myself when my heart says i still love you and damn, I MISS you soo much ..Oopppss !! Can i call you up and hear those angelic voices for the last time? Cos I'm used to hearing it every single day back then.. Haish ..
Now, i really hope i could just move on with life, PLEASE :( , And now how am i supposed to delete you outta my mind and heart when it still shouts i LOVE and MISS you boo ! I wish i could turn the clock hand baaacccck !!! REWIND everything so that i'll be extra careful when i know that you would come back here searching and coming back to me but everything just happened and i can't run away from fate .. We have been fated but you choose to go against that fate and that is what you get now NOTHING !! And whenever i think back about your words from our first meet and till the very end of it.. Seriously, I have no trust in you anymore .. My hope has been shattered by you .. And you also did fail to keep to your so called "(empty)words" "and "(empty) promises" .. As i say i can't forget what you have done towards me but i still did close both eyes and forgive you but not forget.. I wonder Why you do this to me dear? Really am disappointed with ya?? Haish .. Should i or shouldn't i, Cos everything keeps repeating and haunting me over and over again ..I'm really sick and tired of all this.. When i sit down by myself and think back, why should i do all this for the sake of your happiness while i'm bearing all this pain, what about mine feelings DEAR??Ever you think about it. Pathethic much when all you do is think about YOURSELF! I just can't stand guys, along with their huge EGO. Pathetic much! Being Trustworthy , being sincere and being Faithful is all i ever asked for and need, is that so hard you tell me?.. I've been there before, too bleaked to even think, hurt by my previous ex, MOST WORST guy i ever met, that has been the BIGGEST JERK ever he could be.. Frankly speaking, sad to say boo, but i guess you're categorized to be the next JERK on my list! Oohh dear .. I pity you.. Wandering why you have to do this to yourself.. Please keep on behaving this way, might as well, shoot yourself dead cos your life is meaningless when you don't even have the effort to start learning how to appreciate people from today onwards.. PLEASE READ THIS DEAREST BLOG of mine, cos this is the only place where i could blurt everything out so i could let you know what I'm actually feeling..! Firstly,you've promised, you won't let me go but suprisingly you DID.. You promise me you will treasure me forever but sadly you DON'T .. What does life really means to you huh? I really don't understand. You're not even sincere not even ONCE .. And please dear god, I wish i could be strong enough to face this reality ... Thanks for everything boo! I really DO appreciate it a lot .. It is so obvious boo, you delete me off from facebook after your wrongdoings and ashamed of you, scared to face me and continue on being a COWARD.. And to be frank, I really don't mind being friends with you after all the mess you've created.. Cos before this, I've already seen your true colour since our secondary life and i thought you would change for the better but instead for the worst .. Pity you much.. Felt so blessed right now that i woke up from this nightmare and now that i looked back to all these photos, really am disappointed in myself ... WELL NOW, AT THIS VERY MOMENT, I'M NOT GONNA WASTE MY FREAKING TIME TO SOMEONE WHO DON'T LOVE ME BACK ! Thanks for reading and understanding this indecent and hurtful story of mine ..
And a million thanks to my GIRLS who had been there supporting me from the back .. And Guys, help me, i hope i could pull through out of this misery !! Well, I know you wanna see ChachaBey back to her usual Happy self ...Don't worry, that day will definitely come by .. :)
Enough said, Let time itself heal this broken heart of mine, Insyaallah :)
That's all for today ...
I'm off to work later ...
Take care wherever you are babeyh..
Enjoy readers ...
Sorry if my words had offended anyone and make you bite your tongue boo !!!
Yours faithfully,
Chacha bey ♥♥
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